My year 2010

I started to do a summary of my life the past year. But it did not make me happy. And my tendency of getting old and bitter was getting out of control, therefor it got deleted.

Here's a photo from 25th of december celebrations where our little lovely girly trio was reunited. This first of all got me so excited I was buzzing up and down for 3 hours, mixed with alcohol it got somehow under control though, strange enough.

Well, thats it people. Merry belated x-mas. And a happy new year.

Better to be hated than loved, loved, loved for what ur not

My time in Uppsala is coming to an end, and its so sad. U dont realize what u've got til ur about to lose it... Well the boys figured I needed some right abuse for leaving them, u see the result below. Had a nice little pubcrawl with them and Tanja, and some other people who were there part of the night... And we taught Uppsala everything we know about moshpits, was well good fun but not very apriciated from the rest of the dancefloor...

Now I just have to: return a book, buy some kind of transport device for my bike, pack all of my belongings, try to get them in to the car, defrost the freezer, clean the whole apartment, and oh, almost forgot, finish my essay... til the end of tomorrow, good luck!

you're vunerable, you're vunerable
you are not a robot
you're lovable, you're lovable
but you're just trouble

I dont know where u'r from or what ur runnin from

Ses i dimman!

I guess I'm their soldier

I've got a cold, and I whine about it.

I bottle all my hurt inside
I guess I'm living the lie

And right now I'm supposed to be writing my essay. About the thrilling subject - The history of a cow farm, starting a thousand years back in time. Lovely. Exciting. I am so out of here.

but I'm not strong enough to cry

dispite of my disguise

Johnossi concert last night, was good but would've been better if I would've listened to their new album first. Some fucking retard-swedish-girls standing dead still infront of me the whole thing giving me: "if u bump in to me one more time I'll kill u"-glances, but guess what weeny-teeeeeeny-boooring-blooonde-stunning-slag-

UR AT A CONCERT

y o u r s u p p o s e d t o e n j o y a n d j u m p a r o u n d ! ! !

figure I'd just spell it out if it was hard to get the message.

I'm left with no shoulder

but everyone wants to lean on me

I guess I'm their soldier

Pubcrawl tomorrow which would normally get me really excited. Am just really sick of alcohol and a bit sad about leaving Uppsala really.

Who's there to save the girl

after she saves the world?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tb0tycNJc-I&feature=related

"and each person we let ourselves care about, is just one more loss somewhere down the line"

Grey's, Grey's, Grey's - one of the best series ever made, and if u haven't seen when Derek proposes to Meredith yet, dont watch the clip.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wzdMlcCvGJs

Last night it was Harry Potter night. First part of the Deathly Hallows. As a proper nerd, I was a tiny bit annoyed about the missed out bits and little changes. And annoyed when they had to put in extra scenes just to explain to the rest of the -not-so-Potter-nerdy-world what is happening and why it's happening. But as a reasonable being I understand that it had to be done. So, well done on the film, can't wait til the last part which is no doubt gonna be epic. And if it isn't I will hunt the people who made it down and kill them. End of discussion.

And tomorrow I'm goin on a school trip, yey! And for some reason I voluntered to drive which means I will have to get up like and hour earlier than everyone else to pick people up, which is not gonna happen, which means we're gonna be late. And thats the end of that discussion.

Lost and found in Sweden - on ur heart

There are good ideas, and there are bad ideas, and then there are no ideas at all. I had an idea, of going to Uppsala studyin agricultural science - rural developement, which seamed like a brilliant idea at the time. Now it has sort of turned out to be one of my not so brilliant ideas. So I'm leavin, to an even worse idea, to go study maths and chemistry livin at my parents place. Where do all this come from? Where do these ideas ever get put in my head? Then on the other hand I dont really have an other one to take its place. Cause to be true, I've still got absolutely no idea what I'm gonna do with my life. Which just becomes more and more hard to deal with the more I realize how presious life is. I am 21 years old, and in may I'm gonna be 22. I seriously dont think I will be able to handle turning 22. On the other hand I didn't think I could handle turning 21 either, which it turned out I couldn't. In my head I'm 19, and until I've got as good a time as I had when I was 19, I'm gonna stay 19, end of discussion. Turning 22 will involve a cake with my family, and removing my age info on facebook, I'm totaly getting the idea of NOT celebrating your birthday nowadays, and am probably never going to do it again.


What I do know, dear stressful world, is that this is not making me happy, so back on track to find out what actually does.


Highlight of last month was definately a little happy trip to Ireland to see some people that are my friends, and that I love, which is very rare being me. It invovled a lot of alcohol, a lot of happiness, and a lot of girly chats. Love Love Love.

Lost and found in Sweden on ur heart, I know I'm lost will I ever be found? /Artmade

u meet, and neither one of u even know what hit em

Its like I'm huffin' paint

and I love it the more I suffer

I suffocate

and right before I drown

she resuscitates me

she fucking hates me

And I love it